Every so often I start feeling the urge to get into combat flight simulators. Something triggers a wave of desire to go spend time trying to fly a plane in order to shoot down other people flying planes.
I’ve been feeling this lately due to the fact I started watching videos on YouTube by Bismark. He does a variety of different videos, but many of them focus on the game IL-2 Sturmovik: Battle of Stalingrad, one of the more recent entries in the long running IL-2 Sturmovik series of games.
I am pretty sure I have owned a couple of the titles from the series in the past. I was never any good at them.
Rather, watching these videos fans the long quiet embers of a time when I played games like Air Warrior or Falcon or Hellcats over the Pacific, an era of my gaming that runs from the late 80s into the mid 90s… which is to say, a long time ago.
I was young, had the time, energy, and patience to get… if not good, at least past bad and into the range of somewhat competent… with these titles. And then I sort of stopped focusing on that. Things like TorilMUD and Diablo and various incarnations of Civilization became more my thing, and then EverQuest came along and we get to where I am today.
But I have never quite lost that flight sim urge. Every so often I buy or try some flight sim title, realize I don’t really have the patience to get into it again, and move on.
Fortunately we live in the free to play age, so I no longer have to buy to douse that urge. Since the urge is back, I have been back to tinkering around with War Thunder. And since the urge was stoked by IL-2 Sturmovik, I have been playing the Russian tree and the ground attack portion thereof.
Doing ground attack has less of a learning curve than air to air combat. However, it also means you’re meat for the enemy if you’re caught alone, and since games like War Thunder tend to be chaos for the most part anyway, sticking with others or finding targets where fighter cover exists can be problematic. Situations are fleeting and people will run off after any opportunity.
Then the urge to take a fighter up and reply in kind comes through and how bad I am shines through. My copy of Fighter Combat glowers at me from the bookshelf as I make all the rookie mistakes, even though I know as I do them that they are mistakes.
I tell myself that trying to do this with mouse and keyboard… and not even a mouse, but a trackball… is just wrong and that I really need a new flight stick because I got rid of my old one when it became so old that the company dropped driver support for it.
And then I spend some time looking at flight sticks… I think I would go with the Thrustmaster T.1600M at this point, based on what I have read… and I think some more, put something on my wish list, take it back off, then put it back on again as the urge fights with the more detached knowledge of myself. I know, if I can step back from whatever passion there is, that I don’t really have the patience to get up to speed, much less good.
Meanwhile, the urge counters with the fact that I already own some games like Elite: Dangerous where the flight stick might be useful. I could get use out of something I already own. Looking in my Steam library, at some point I even bought IL-2 Sturmovik: 1946, during a sale no doubt.
Meanwhile the detached side starts going on about the sunk costs fallacy.
The likely end result is that I’ll just play War Thunder with my current setup until I get tired of being shot down constantly and go back to things that are now more my speed. But there is always a battle within me.